last night just before i was going to cuddle with my KaiYin, i did one last check online. as usual, i refreshed my open tabs checking for updates and emails. when i refreshed my facebook i noticed the "friend suggestion" in the sidebar. it was a girl i was best friends with in high school for a while... she and i had "broken up" (for lack of a better term) for "high school reasons". silly teenager stuff. i dont remember most of it. there are a lot of things i have blurred from my past. anywhom. the caption under her photo said "30 people are mutual friends". i kinda did a "humph" to myself about that. then i went to hang out on the couch with my doggies for slumber.
while i was awake on the couch, i got to thinking about how strange that is. this girl and i have 30 friends in common yet we have not communicated with each other (or even showed any interest in doing so) for about 15 years. literally, 15 years. i was even friends with her older sister for a while, yet we never talked about her. that astounds me. i also find it a curious thing about many other people i knew earlier in life that i have encountered since becoming an "adult". i dont believe i have changed all that much. i mean, sure, i'm a "grown up" now, but i think all of my belief systems are the same. it's odd / interesting to me to see the way people i knew from high school react when they now see me back in my "home" town as an adult. many of them are still clinging to their high school popularity and still want that acknowledgment. some people that only knew me based on rumors still think that was and is who i am. others are completely open to finding out what's happened in the last 15 years and have actually moved on from high school days. i think a LOT of it has to do with one common factor i have found across the board... who moved away after high school and who stayed in this small town. i moved away, right away. i never did drugs or drank in high school. yes, i drank after high school, but i still to this day have never done drugs. i had friends that were potheads or whatever, but that never bothered me. many many times i was a DD, so i suppose it all worked out. some people got stuck in the downward spiral and couldnt get themselves out and/or did want help getting out. some of the "druggies" that i knew in high school have since turned around and now get high on the Lord. and that is all fine and dandy. whatever makes you happy. like i said, it is just very interesting to see who turned out to be what they are today in comparison to what they were back then... in addition to how they look at you now in retrospect to how they looked at you and treated you years ago.
yeah, so... i'm sure it was only because i was thinking about all of this that once i fell asleep, this girl from high school that i havent talked with in 15 years but has 30 mutual facebook friends with me, she appeared in my dreams. okay. not sooo strange. however. what is freaky to me is this:
just before i got in the shower earlier this afternoon, i did a quick refresh of all my open website tabs. i got a facebook notification " *high school girl* added you as a friend on Facebook. We need to confirm that you know *high school girl* in order for you to be friends on Facebook." really? no... REALLY?! this was just plain odd to me. weird. creepy. something i cant think of a word for. or maybe it wasnt. maybe it is really nothing to think about, and i just think too much about everything.
( yeah, i do that from time to time ) <<<--------- understatement!
anywhom, so i accepted her friend request and i suppose we will see how it goes from there. maybe nothing will happen. maybe we will just glance at each others status updates from time to time and that'll be it. who knows. but i just thought it was something peculilar enough to mention. feel free to share your thoughts. and if you happen to be said *high school girl* (you would know if you are!) i look forward to getting to know you again!