hey there punks and kittens~
i woke up to 3 more emails asking why do i go solo to comedy shows, music, movies... basically everything i do. well, because i cant let being single and alone keep me from doing what makes me happy! for so long i have suffered with depression and loneliness... and eventually it either kills who you are or you have to try to climb out. i am trying to climb out. i have tried dragging friends and family along with me to events that make me happy... but they are not always (actually, almost never) as enthusiastic about it as i was, or am. and while i enjoy spending time with my them, it just wasnt the experience either of us hoped it would be. they dont enjoy the entertainment i do, and/or they want to leave right after the show. i like to hang out and mingle and talk with the performers (when possible) and just plain be social. there are so many celebs that dont act like celebs. they just want to be "regular" people and they genuinely like to hang out, talk, and interact with their fans. and when you get a bunch of fans in the same room, even if the fans have never met, you are still like extended family. you are all there for the same reason, you have something in common... the love for the art you are about to experience. while introducing your friends and family to new stuff you like that they may not have been exposed to otherwise can be fun, it can also be somewhat of a downer if 20 minutes in you can tell they arent enjoying what you are head over heels about... then do you leave for them or do they stay for you? real bummer. so, i just decided to got it alone. i want to enjoy all that i can! i find it interesting that a few of the emails i have received in the recent past regarding my solo flights are from some of the same people that hated hearing all my depression spew. i would bitch and complain and be depressed all the time, cocoon myself in my house, not answer my door or phone... and so many people kept telling me "just get out of the house" ... "if you would just get out and do something with yourself you would feel better" ... and a hundred other comments like those. so now, i have started to actually live my life, and i am getting (what feels like) mild criticism because i am doing it all by myself. dont get me wrong, i have had a handful of vocal solo-supporters... but isnt always the bad apple that ruins the pie? (not sure why i said that, i dont even like apple pie!) anywhom... i do have a more extensive update i have been working on since i havent posted in ages and i keep getting emails. i appreciate all the love and support i do get! i just felt like this should be addressed right now.i would like to add that it is not that i enjoy being single, i would LOVE to have someone i love that loves me and enjoy all these things together... but since i am single, i am trying to make the most of it!
i hope you all have a magnificent tuesday!